Why I Don’t Do Women’s Studies
by
Justine Nicholas
by Justine Nicholas
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In
a recent article, William Anderson
described a culture of vicarious victimization that has pervaded
so many campuses. He also explained how it has contributed, at least
in part, to turning a questionable (to put it charitably) accusation
into a travesty of justice that has tarred and feathered three young
men who seemed to be doing little more than acting like young men.
Professor Anderson’s
article, and e-mails we exchanged following it, got me to thinking
about an experience I had while I was in graduate school.
At the time,
I was supplementing my assistantship by teaching a night course
for another university. This class met in one of that university’s
"satellite campuses." The one in which I taught was located
in a former junior high school in the East New York section of Brooklyn.
That year, the NYPD’s 75th Precinct, which included the
campus, recorded more homicides than were recorded in all of France
or Germany.
All fourteen
students in that class were Black and/or Latina women who lived
in that neighborhood or in the adjoining communities of Brownsville
and Bedford-Stuyvesant. And all of those women were older than I
was.
Years later,
I still think of them as one of the most enjoyable groups of people
I’ve ever worked with. Some had jobs; others were trying to jump-start
their lives after husbands, boyfriends or others in their lives
died or disappeared. No matter their circumstances, they all came
to class prepared to engage in lively, informed discussions. Their
experiences gave more resonance to the insights they gained from
their reading and shared with the class.
Everything
went swimmingly until one class session just after the midterm.
That night’s class session was unlike any other up to that point:
I was the only one talking.
Frustrated,
I snapped my book shut. The students stared at me. Equally stunned,
I grappled with myself for a way to proceed. I intoned, "What
are you thinking now?"
Neither their
stares nor silence broke.
"All right,"
I sighed. "Could you tell me what you think of the reading?"
I had assigned
an essay from the reader the university’s English department mandated
for the course. Previously assigned readings included short stories
and poems from that same reader. The works all, in one way or another,
dealt with some aspect of working (or not working) and community
life. The essay, I thought, complemented those readings by offering
another perspective, albeit one more theoretical and academic, on
the issues and ideas we had discussed.
But the students
thought otherwise. They made comments about not learning anything
from the essay or simply finding it boring. I assured them that
their responses were valid and asked them to explain why they had
such responses.
"It was
written by some white professor," said Marva, whose son was
one of my graduate-school classmates. "He’s using lots of big,
fancy words to tell us that there’s racism and sexism."
"OK. So
why does that bother you?"
"Look
at me. Do you think I need anyone to tell me that there’s racism."
I giggled nervously.
"Hmm…I guess that would be like your son warning you about
the risk of pregnancy."
Everyone laughed.
Others added their comments. Finally, I said, "Well, I guess
I won’t be assigning that one again."
"So why
did you assign it?" Marva wondered.
I mumbled a
few things about its relevance to the topics we’d discussed. But
I agreed that it had its shortcomings; indeed, I really didn’t care
much for it.
Then Ivette,
a strikingly beautiful woman whose abusive ex-boyfriend intimidated
her out of a modeling career she’d begun to pursue in her teen years,
wondered aloud, "Why don’t you teach us things you really care
about? Things you know really well?"
My tongue only
partly in my cheek, I retorted, "What if everything I know
and love was written by dead white men?"
"Well,
we need to read what they wrote," Ivette responded.
"We’re
here for an education. Give us the best you’ve got." That challenge
issued from Shirley, who just a few months earlier completed her
high school diploma at age 46.
"OK. Be
careful of what you wish for…"
"Don’t
be afraid to teach us," Marva insisted.
A couple of
days later, I bought enough copies of the Dover Thrift Editions
of William Shakespeare’s The
Tempest and Henrik Ibsen's A
Doll’s House for everyone in the class. I told the students
that these books, which cost only a dollar each, were on me, but
they all insisted on paying for them. I chose those two plays for
no other reason than that they are my favorites.
Their responses
exceeded my most optimistic hopes. They were eager to read parts
of the play aloud. And, even though our "campus" was located
several miles from the university’s library and none of them had
computers (This was in the days before Internet usage was widespread.),
all of them did probing research on various aspects of the plays,
including their performances, historical contexts and, in the case
of Shakespeare, his language.
Later, I realized
that the plays mattered to these women for the same reasons they
meant so much to me. Shakespeare and Ibsen both dealt with matters
of fate and choice, and the consequences of each. And they did it
in such a way that reached across centuries and continents, and
across divides of socio-economic class and gender.
When I was
growing up, the only books in our house were the set of Grolier
Encyclopedia my grandmother purchased for us. Neither of my
parents finished high school: My mother went to work to help support
her family and my father joined the Air Force, where he completed
his GED. For me, plays like those of Shakespeare and Ibsen, as well
as the 19th-Century English and French novels, and Latin
American poetry I would find at the local public library, allowed
me to see worlds that existed beyond the bubbling bricks and flaking
paint of my blue-collar Brooklyn neighborhood.
I realized
that my students were simply asking me to help them experience the
intellectual and aesthetic nourishment I gained from my own reading.
To have done anything less would have been cheating them. They didn’t
want to read more about "black experience" or "Latina
perspective" any more than I would have wanted some ivory-tower
pundit to tell me about my neighborhood. My students and I lived
the lives the academics purported to represent; we wanted more.
So I gave those
women the best I could at the time. It may not have been much, but
at the end of the semester, all of my students thanked me.
And
I continue to thank them, wherever they are. If I hadn’t met them,
I might’ve become a professor of Women’s, Gender, or one of the
other "studies" rather than a lifelong student of literature,
history, language and art.
January
27, 2007
Justine
Nicholas [send her mail]
teaches English at the City University of New York.
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