Sins of the Fathers
by
Michael Gaddy
by Michael Gaddy
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(Exodus
20:5) – "You shall not worship them or serve them; for I,
the Lord your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the
fathers on the children, on the third and the fourth generations
of those who hate me,"
In the mid
to late 1960’s and early 1970’s, hundreds of thousands of young
Americans left their youth and innocence to become Airmen, Marines,
Sailors and Soldiers and journey to a country the vast majority
could not find on a map. They met the devil face to face in places
with names like the A Shau and Il Drang Valleys, Hobo Woods, The
Rockpile, mountains with numbers like 875 and 881, the brown waters
and thick jungles of IV Corps, and the SAM decorated skies of North
Vietnam.
Very early
on most realized we were not fighting and dying for our country,
the flag, mom or apple pie, but were witnessing firsthand the insanity
of fighting in an undeclared, illegal and immoral war, supposedly
to bring freedom and democracy to a people the vast majority of
whom were tired of having their homes burned and bombed and their
relatives killed and maimed. They hated our guts and wanted us to
hell out of their country.
Many began
to realize that as Major General
Smedley Butler had said decades before, we were simply hit men
for big business in America. The truly brave among us finally outright
refused to participate in the insanity.
We came home
to a misguided, ignorant nation who blamed its veterans for the
mess our criminal politicians had gotten us into. An American population
yelled obscenities at veterans who had been victims of unspeakable
horrors when they met them at the airports and bus stations on their
return home, but gave a pass to the politicians who sent them there.
Those
responsible for these unspeakable horrors retired quietly to live
on their blood money and later write books stating they may have
made some mistakes, but were by no means culpable for the damage
they created or the veterans they left behind in the hands of the
enemy.
Thousands of
these returning veterans found themselves unable to adapt to a normal
life; many committed suicide or turned to crime. Almost all had
problems with their personal relationships. All the while the Veterans
Administration refused to address the problems of PTSD, Agent Orange
poisoning and a myriad of other issues.
What insanity
allowed us to have these same crimes perpetrated on our children
by the same breed of criminals who sent us to the jungles of Vietnam?
Something over
two years ago, I asked Christian warmongers and George W. Bush idolaters
here
to please discontinue their support for my son who had just returned
from a tour of duty with an Army Cavalry unit in Iraq. Three months
after his return he was finally able to get out of the Army.
From my own
experiences, I knew my son would be dealing with the demons and
horrors of war for years to come. I found him once in the middle
of the floor in his room, in the fetal position, yelling at the
visions in his head to please go away; I saw him struggling to adjust
to a world he could not understand and destroying relationships
with those he loved. I saw the fits of depression and the utter
fear of being in crowds or the panic he experienced while driving
in traffic and on bridges.
After many
sessions with Army psychologists, he was told he was suffering from
classic symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) but the
Army, in order to make themselves less culpable for the damage inflicted
by war, ruled he did not have PTSD, but instead awarded him a 50%
disability for sleep apnea!
Then, about
a month ago, the unthinkable happened: the notice came from the
Army that he was being reactivated to active duty. He was to report
on 9 January 2008, receive three months intensive training and then
be deployed again to Iraq.
Shortly after
this notice arrived, I received this email from my son:
DAD
You need to write another article, I would, but I really can't
put what I am thinking about into something cohesive. You
need to write it about how we are coming back messed up only to
be sent back; how the army thinks we were not screwed up
enough the first time; how we feel the only place we can
function is back there; how we are living in a world as a
civilian that we fail in being able to adjust; how we make
it through battle only to self destruct when we get out.
It is like once we get back we are forgotten, no longer heroes,
no longer patriots, the only thing we get is the occasional thank
you, but thank you for what; if they knew would they still thank
us? I always hear how we should not be there, but talk is all it
is. I know I have to go back, not just because the army says so,
but for my own sanity. I am scared to death though; will it be
worse when I get back the second time, or will it be easier,
or will I come back at all? Sometimes, I think a quick death
in Iraq is better than the slow one I feel I am doing here.
Chris
For decades
now we have chosen to worship
the state rather than ensure our freedom and liberty. The price
we have chosen to pay is the lives of our children and grandchildren,
sacrificed on the altar of empire and the bottom line of the military
industrial congressional complex.
It is time
to stop the madness.
Thanks, Chris,
for the inspiration.
December
4, 2007
Michael
Gaddy [send him mail],
an Army veteran of Vietnam, Grenada, and Beirut, lives in the Four
Corners area of the American Southwest.
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