Why I'm No Longer on the So-Called Left

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off, we don’t have a real Left in this country – haven’t
since Eugene V. Debs and the Industrial Workers of the World back
in 1912. After that we had some people actually thought copying
a backwards, feudal Eurasian country was a good idea. Then we had
New Deal liberal-corporatism. The "counter-culture" left
was mostly childish, but to the degree it fought against the Vietnam
war and for civil rights, it served a decent purpose. Since then,
there's been very little — some people thought the WTO protest meant

so what's left today is a thousand points of light of individuals,
who live mostly in big cities and do some good stuff every now and
again. There's scant cohesion or coherence — all too often, there
is scant seriousness too. They’re bourgeois by what American
life has become — I don't blame them — but, too often they simply
live life as a negation — America and what its government does is
really hurting them. So, sometimes they lash out, other times they
stew in resentment. In my experience of 6 1/2 years with it — in
what Cheney calls the "belly of the beast," San Francisco
— a lot of leftists are not only superficial, but selfish
too. Sad to have to write this – because it’s the end of something
I had hope in, and devoted a lot of energy and passion to —

Institutional Framework

The vanguard-hetero-Commie Left – Not much point in even
critiquing this. The only worthwhile thing they do is organize demos
and so forth. They shout their idiotic, alienating rhetoric and
collect money in trash barrels.

The Academic/Cultural Left – Also rather useless in
too frequent, specific cases. Amazingly helpful and worthwhile in
others. The critique here is not of people who are professors –
not at all – the problem, I believe, after 9/11 especially,
is starting to recede somewhat. That problem? The jargon-ridden,
cult-stud, po-co, post-mod, post-interesting claptrap that gets
churned out in reams and reams. It's just boring careerism –
they have to write something. Also, they do poison
people's minds at times against this country – they're one-sided
about American history – sometimes almost as one-sided as the
Neocon right is all the time. Not that it's all junk, I'm referring
more to the annoying "literary style" in which simple
things tend to get mystified. I think academia is coming around
to the crisis in front of us – great, join the party for those
book-smart stragglers.

The Anarchists – This is where I cut my teeth on the urban
left. I retain sympathy for the historic sensibility of anarchism,
as well as individual anarchists I've met over the years, but it's
essentially an insular youth subculture that spends as much time
drinking and complaining as doing anything. It can be fairly interesting
– particularly if you meet the older generation. As for the kids?
They're mostly a bunch of suburban brats having their little rebellion
before it's off to grad school so they can u2018help the world' – or
get their MBA. Whichever. I now know what Frank Zappa meant when
he said he never participated in much counter-culture political
activism during the late 1960s – he said: u2018I saw how superficial
it was.' Yup.

The Non-Profit Left – Again, I'm glad they're there – some
of them do quite good work too, of course. It's very middle class,
however, and the funding comes from sympathetic rich people oftentimes.
So, it's not terribly populist, except for the use of volunteers.
They organized WTO and other important milestones – they can be
quite creative – they are unfairly being attacked by the InJustice
Department. They deserve the support of people of conscience. It's
just that their room to maneuver politically is limited by who holds
their purse strings. Sad that more ordinary people don't support
such groups – or that the model chosen was: the grant financing
route. Reform groups are always allied with one element of the rich
or upper middle class – which is fine, but it is what it is.

The Colloquial / Relgious Left – This is probably the group
that I have the most respect for – even though I'm not religious.
They have a core – the Unitarians, the Quakers, the Mennonites,
lefty Catholics, the Buddhists, Jewish community groups – everybody
else too. But, again, I'm not religious, so there's no point in
doing that either. We can work together though. These are also the
secular grassroots community-based organizations that don't necessarily
have to rely on a wealthy benefactor. Sort of like what was utterly
common all across this country – among brutalized working people
too – as recently as the early 1960s perhaps.

The Labor Movement – Well, it's a mixed bag. Some
unions – the ILWU, the SEIU and a few others – are quite
good. Most are okay or mediocre. Some, like Hoffa's kid's Teamsters
– will openly collaborate with Bush on certain issues –
others are just a pack of frozen dinosaurs. Theoretically, the labor
movement should be more ambitious – they don't have the numbers
or the money to do as much as they used to – but, I reckon
it's also a question of inertia and lack of creativity – I
just have to look at the materials my union, the UFCW, sends out
to see that they have scant concept of what younger people would
find appealing. I have sympathy with this left too – since
they do actually help ordinary people survive in this country –
they actually serve a useful and helpful purpose – unless they
don't, of course.

I've gravitated towards the libertarians – not one of them, either
– I look askance at capitalism – not one of anything – but
at least they're serious people and adults. They also happen
to be nicer and more generous and mutually supporting than most
leftists — which is funny, given all the u2018individualist' talk and
reputation. They're certainly more secure and happy.

idea why the Left never gets anywhere? Because it's a drag –
who wants to spend time with a bunch of resentful, fulminating,
self-righteous blabbermouths? Almost no one does, save other big
mouths with little educations from privileged, fancy schools. 90%
of the "hard core" leftists — of whatever stripe — that
I've encountered over the years are upper middle class white people
with a Masters degree about half the time. They're so "bourgois"
— but they hate "the bourgeoisie" — how hilarious
is that! Beneath the surface they are what they hate — sometimes
literally, sometimes figuratively, sometimes both. It takes an average
working person about two seconds to see through that.

left is soooo into categories. "Libertarians are evil"
– but I'm "open-minded!" Har de har har. Many leftists
are as close-minded as fundamentalist Christians. "Ever wonder
why we laugh laugh at your lives?" goes an old Dead
Kennedys song… So, among the most sophisticated libertarians, their
critique goes right at the state and the corporation –
to the extent that it acts unethically, say, in the conduct of American
foreign policy – or in business dealings which scam investors.

best among them are essentially grown up anarchists – they just
want the obvious – for people to treat one another with dignity
and respect so that no state is necessary. That's my utopian dream
too – won't happen – social democracy is almost utopian under Bush
– but that's my goal in the pragmatic, electoral, real-world sphere.
Something like a welfare state and the abolition of the warfare
state — some libertarians are almost ready to split that loaf…

Psychological Dimension

also found that I really don't care for too many left-wingers personally.
They're so damaged by society that they can't do much but complain,
negate, piss and moan – they're tiresome. Since their privileged
their personal gripes are often childish — and boring. They've traveled
the world — most drunk probably — there's no global context in which
their complaints are placed. They don't think that their little
credit card debt or little problem with a girl or boy are what they
are — luxury problems. Some of them bother to do something
sometimes – that's fine. But it's generally so far off base – extreme
identity politics, silly class warfare sloganeering, nihilistic
whining – pick your poison.

you think many of these unserious "radicals" spend much
time talking to anyone who isn't rather well-educated and middle
class? It's not just white people either, but, it's mostly spoiled
white kids who think that they're "making a difference"
and stuff. They recycle! They're vegan! They would never hunt or
fish – that would be a grave transgression against their dufus-lifestyle-morality
code. They hike in nature! They buy socially responsible stuff at
socially responsible venues! Aren’t they just so, so admirable?
They rarely have any poor, immigrant or non-white friends or acquaintances
though – but they're going to get right out there and help
those people. Suuuuure they are – maybe they could discuss
the exigencies inherent in the terrain of the spiraling negativity
implicit in the post-colonial mindset – keep masturbating.

from being babies, some of these ones are really rather backbiting,
rather betrayal-oriented, rather small, insecure and pathetic. They're
so unhappy and about the world and stuff – they just have to
take it out on someone they're close to. It's hilarious – after
a while. So, as I say, while their politics might or might not be
agreeable – their negation values, their empty core –
what they do when no one is looking – is for s__t,
often times. They reflect in their own acts what they pretend to
criticize when they talk. They’re all about "freedom"
and "choice" – but look what they do with it: get
wasted, take drugs, screw people over after the sack, lie, cheat
and steal. Lot’s of ‘em. They think that by being nice and conscientious
in one sphere gives them carte blanche to be a jerk in
another sphere. It's quite funny how they push their insecurities
and resentments on you and dress them up as "help" or
"love" or "friendship." When you've seen what
Nietzsche calls subterraneanism – a kind of cowardly
concealment – a hundred times over again: it just becomes
annoying and wearying.

– in flashes of anger – it occurs to some of us to "smash
them like gnats" — how my best friend once put it. But then,
we reflect; we figure it's not worth it – it would take too much
effort. And besides, the coldest approach is always silence.

is an interesting approach to life – of course, it makes them miserable
– they debase themselves and those around them – they often can't
even help even themselves. So, there's no point in trying to "save"
them – let them walk their in their goofy circles, chasing tails.
They're getting their just deserts one way or another.

28, 2005

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